When I first came up with the baby bed idea it seemed so simple – all set, right? But then I started drawing out the plans and I realized a bunch of design flaws that I needed to work out. After that I was all set, right? During the Thanksgiving break I decided to take advantage of my dad’s tools and the big open space of my parent’s house to make the 3-d model. That’s when I ran into even more challenges.
Mike found me huddled in a mass of styrofoam cut outs and cardboard scraps. “What’s wrong?” He asked.
“This is never going to work. I keep figuring out more and more problems with the design, and I’m going to fail, and this is just a big waste of time,” I said in a fit of hysteria.
“But what are you doing when you find a flaw?”
“I fix it duh.”
“Well then you’re not going to fail. The whole point of making the prototype is to foresee any future problems and fix them while it’s still cheap. If you don’t face your problems right away, then you fail.”
Don’t I have a smart boyfriend!
This whole process has been an emotional roller coaster. Sometimes I think I’m brilliant and I’m going to be on the cover of Business Women Today, and other times I think I should give up while I still have some savings and get the first safe job I can get. But you need that mix of emotions to be successful; the brazen self-confidence to take a risk, and the crippling self-doubt to say this isn’t good enough. If you have to much of the former you’ll never challenge yourself to improve- why would you, you’re perfect as is. If you have to much of the latter, you’ll never actualize your dreams – they’re not good enough anyway. So while it’s unsettling to ride the roller coaster I wouldn’t have it any other way.
p.s. Thank you Marika for the photos.