Insane Courage

Pretty Matt Damon

I must be getting older because I no longer think anything is cheesy. What once would have made me roll my eyes now makes me teary eyed. Case in point, a commercial for We Bought a Zoo. I heard Matt Damon telling his son, “Sometimes all you need is 20 seconds of insane courage.” I wanted to sigh but I couldn’t. Because it’s true.

OK, so I’m not buying a zoo, but I am starting a business. Every stage takes a long time and it’s filled with lots of financial woes, self-doubt, and scrutiny. But there comes a time when I need to make a decision and that’s what takes me to the next stage. Those few seconds of decision making are the scariest and they do take insane courage. In the end, it doesn’t matter how much time you spend researching and contemplating the issue if you never make a decision.

I was met with the fear of decision making when buying the domain name for my baby bed business. When I tried to buy the domain name Beddybye.com the guy who owned it wanted $1,800. I tried to talk him down to $500, and that’s when he upped his price to $2,500. I spent several weeks thinking up a better name, and spending about $200 on substitute domain names, but I didn’t like any of them as much as the original name. Out of the blue, the owner of beddybye contacted me and said he would sell it to me for $500! The rest should have been easy. I spent all that time trying to get the name for $500, so you think I would have paid for it immediately. But I sat at my kitchen table with my hand quivering over the keyboard for about 20 minutes before clicking  the “send payment” button on Paypal. Pressing the button meant that it’s real. I’m now $500 more into it and there’s no going back.

The hardest part of life is making a decision. Everything else is just a logical response to the decision. As Rita Mae Brown said, “A Peacefulness follows any decision, even the wrong one.” Once you make a decision you can be done with the fear and doubt that preempted it. So have a little “insane courage” and make a decision. No matter what you decide it’s better than staying paralyzed in indecision.

Life is the sum of all your choices.  ~Albert Camus

5 comments

  1. Wow, I just stumbled upon this post today and your blog overall and I LOVE it! I love your spirit and determination. Congratulations on your decision to move forward towards your dream; take a bow! It’s celebrating the little victories that matter most!

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